My life has it. I'll post explaining it all in a bit. Too hungry atm.

Note to self: no amount of comfort is worth missing a pill. Emoness catching up to me.

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So as I can not seem at all to even comprehend what is going on in my life and how I feel about it, I decided to try (for what is probably the 15th time) to write some sort of story. Just fiction. no band members, no slash nothing fancy. Just boy meets girl, fucks it all up. You know, angst

A video of the fantastic rapper mc chris rapping In the Hall of the Mountain by Grieg. I was so happy when I discovered this.

My lack of posting depresses me. It's sad that I don't even have 5 min to update. One should come today as my plan for tonight is to do laundry and no one is going to be in the cities.

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My lack of posting depresses me. It's sad that I don't even have 5 min to update. One should come today as my plan for tonight is to do laundry and no one is going to be in the cities.

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It kinda sucks that it takes a missed anti-depressant to remind me how much I love kill Hannah.

Also it's amazing how one kid on a light rail training yelling to remind me how much I hate children.

This lj for iPhone app basically rocks my world cause it also me to put down my feelings from anywhere and thus on the way to and from work. I mean once I get more time, I'm going to sit down and type up an entry but for now, this works.

Also I <3 take these broken wings. It's the best slash I've read. I keep putting off reading it cause I don't want to run out of it.

I am also quitting wow for a game I enjoy more but it just brings up the fears of leaving everything I've ever known like it will be if I study abroad. I worry what friends will be waiting when I get back, if any. That is the one thing that scares me about it. I want to go to like Italy so ridiculously bad but I have so much anxiety about what people actually think of me and what I mean to them that I fear if I leave and come back that no one will be here for me when I get back.

Now I must stop as crying on the train would be embarassing and I'm already wiping away tears.

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'Don't go there I need the support for my Lude project' apparently my dads car project is more important than my sanity

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On the light rail back from work at old navy. Not my favorite thing. Will not be working here too long unless I get a car. I mean the job is aight and there are a plethora of hotties but the ride is killing me. It's 2 hours out of my day. All it gives me is a chance to listen to music and freak out about the work NOT getting done. I'm just going to search hardcore for a job closer to campus. When I find and get one, I'm immediately quitting. I just can't take it. Not to mention there is too much time to get lost in my own thoughts and when I've missed my pill, that's not fun. I mean it's just moderate anxiety but for like 4 hours it blows.

Enough bitching :)

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Don't have much time cause super busy but:
1. Paramore rocked
2. Mock trial got 4-4 deserved better
3. Have a shit ton of homework to get done
4. Starting new job and i'd give my feelings as mixed